Juz not my day....

WARNING: IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO VULGARITIES, DO NOT CONTINUE READING.

It's been a long time since I last blogged....
~ A levels is long over.
~ Got a slack but long hour job.
~ Got new bike.
~ Contracted illness. (3 for the price of 1 ~ cough, flu and sore throat)
~ Got freaking FUCKED UP by a person called FATHER.



Here's the story for the day:

The person called FATHER got home at 7pm. I happened to be watching TV and am on MC today. 2 days ago after my night shift, leader sms to work OT for yesterday's day shift. Though I was just beginning to get sick, I agreed and worked OT. While working yesterday, I felt very uncomfortable and unwell, was very tempted to take half day and go home to rest. But banging hard on the 1.5times pay, I continued to the end of the shift. I was in a really bad shape after shift. So I took MC today and CONSULTED a doctor. This is how the convo went.

~ Why you nvr go and work today?

= I am sick.

~ Then why did you go for OT yesterday? Do you know how hard it is to plan the OT for you?

= *STARE*

~ Last night still go and ride bike! (FYI, it wasnt riding, it was eating and chatting)

= *goes into room ~ Slams door real hard ~ Blast music ~ Went shower ~ get medi, food and
drink*

= HOW HARD IS IT TO PLAN THE OT?! IT WAS LAST MIN!!! I WAS FEELING ALRIGHT WHEN I WORKED THE OT! YOU THINK I DON'T NEED MONEY?! I TOLD YOU I WASNT
FEELING WELL DURING WORK YESTERDAY!

= *slams door f-u-c-k-i-n-g hard*

= *opens door*

= YOU BETTER APOLOGISE TO ME!

= Slams door...


That was how it went. Am fucking pissed right now. I can't freaking live in peace for 1 month without any war INVOLVING ME! For crying out loud, FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!! ARGH! Just settled one bloody war and here comes another. WHAT'S NEXT ASSHOLES?!?!?!?!






New year and my life is so screwed!!! I am really happy that I got bronze for my NAPFA. Getting into army earlier so no need see them. Think I'll lock my BIKES in my room when I'm away in tekong. This place is so gona be a hotel room. So wana move out of here. Only have got 2 options left to get outta this living hell.
1. Get married fast after Uni and move out. (need at least 6yrs from now.)
2. Work for 5yrs after uni and move out with SAM. (need at least 9 years and S$600,000)
Maybe there's a third way. Be as good as a mute and deaf till I'm ready for my dreams. Yea, I think that this is the best way... I'm a changed man! Gona turn 19 in 2wks or so.... This is the "BEST" birthday present they have given me for the past 19years. I'm "LOVING" it like FUCK!

People tell others that others have changed. But have they ever thought that it is actually those around those that "have changed" that changed them in the first place. Think about this.

My dear friends, if you find me different, don't be shocked, I'm just merely adjusting to my NEW LIFE.

"Friends will not follow you all the way, when you are in trouble they will move away from you. You can only depend on your parents." OR "Your friends don't understand you, we do." Find these familiar? It's common phrases used by MOST parents. I find this a total bullshit. They are just finding excuses to make you trust them. In fact, tey don't even understand us a single bit. Friends are those that understand us the most. WHY?! Because we spend more then half the day with them either in school or hanging out. Time with parents? ~ less then 6h a day.

Why do we need our parents? We plainly just need the cash and a roof over our head. Other than that, it's up to us. They don't understand us. And you don't have to have many friends, a few close friends will do. Why have a few hundred hi~and~bye friends when you can have 5 close friends that you know you can rely on? I dare say my close friends know what are my likes and dislikes and my attitude better as compared to my parents.

> ok, i've come to the end of my anger and frustration. Shall not continue anymore about this.

~PANIC~

28 more days to start of A levels... and I'm still dangling there....

Put A levels aside for a moment...
Been thinking a lot lately. Must have been Sam Seah's great influence. Hahaha.

Been thinking if I ever chose the right path for myself at every critical point in life...
Been thinking if I'm regretting the path I've chosen for myself...
Been thinking if I right....
Been thinking what if I'm WRONG....

I think... I do the right things... in the WRONG time....
1 good example... When piano exams are nearing, I do more of my academic subjects. When academic exams are nearing, I practice the piano more often... Weird? It's true...

So... I've been wondering... ...was CCHY good for me? Should I have worked harder then? WHAT IF I got into somewhere better, will my life still be the same? WHAT IF I studied for my O Levels... Would I score better? WHAT IF I have studied harder for A levels, will i still be panicky now? "WHAT IF" sucks....

Think I've gotta summon my energy to deal with this F***ing reality... One of my favourite teacher in secondary school once told my class, "Exam is like a battle. Go in there and DESTROY the paper (not literally). Don't let the paper DESTROY you."

I think it's time for me to sleep... I think so...
Even when I'm sleeping, I'm still thinking...

Guilt

Feels really bad...
Guilt's killing me...
Exam stress sux...
Life's meaningless...

Can't get angry...
IQ will get lowered...
Can I go emo???
I think I will...

No life...
No MONEY...
No girl (optional)...
No studies?!?!

Things that I should do...
~ Throw phone away
~ Throw lappy away
~ Throw TV away
~ Throw books away.... (how i wish...)

Someone juz stab me! To hell with life... F***!!!!

I'm so sorry... Really am....

Today was supposed to be a nice day out. But I think I screwed thinks up too much.

Woke up late due to the all-too-nice weather... When I was up, the sun was shinning brightly at me ass. Wait... It was ranning, no sun... So I slacked awhile and ate me brunch before meeting YQ and YJ at AMK to play pool before proceeding to Vivocity. Today's pool sucked... YQ won obviously, but we made too many mistakes... Shitty game it was.

Left K-Pool at 2.30pm and we thought it was alright being late but who knows, we were the earliest. So while waiting for the girls, we went window shopping. Then Denise called. So we went back down to basement to look for her. While we were making our way down, guess what, we blew our cover!!! We met Lauren, Fynn and Adeline. Were suppose to surprise Lauren but we got surprised instead. Haiz... Bought a nice nice cake for her before going to the restaurant that Fynn and Adeline brought her to.

Here comes the fun (or torture for Lauren). Lauren had to down bout 800ml of mineral water after her meal before comsuming 18bites of her birthday cake. And I had the honour of getting the nice nice harden chocolate cake into her mouth. In order to present her he birthday prez, the girls made her spin 18 rounds in the restaurant. Haha. then it was picture after picture....

Everything went hay-wired towards the end of the day when we were making our way home(for the guys) and to orchard (for the girls). Everyone was making fun of the errors Fynn made and I think we went overboard. She was kinda pissed by it but she controlled it pretty well. Then I angered Lauren. I was holding on to her prez while YQ was holding on to her cake. Then she wanted to hold her prez but before it was in her possession, YQ and I stuffed the cake into that bag containing her prez. When I passed it to her, the cake fell and nobody took the cake. Thus this sparked off the anger. Lauren was pissed. Tried to apologise but to no avail. The incident left me guilty and feeling down.

When was reading Chem after that, nothing went into my head. Think Guilt must have eaten me inside out.... I am so sorry for what I've done... Really am... ='(

HEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO........
I AM LINDSAY LOOOOOHHHHAAAAAAANNNNNNN.....

Hahaha... Did not blog for quite some time due to prelims. Sick man, this school of mine... Maths is ~!@#$%^&*. They seriously plan for 10 people to pass?! Never mind... Heck care man, it's just prelims afterall. What more can i ask for? I enter the school that sets ridiculous questions to the extent that other school's teachers say "*JC paper no need to do. Too difficult."

Haiz... I think I needa replan my prelim's target after the paper.
This is what I think I'll be getting:
GP ~ C (worst D)
Phy ~ C
Chem ~ D
Maths ~ U
Econs ~ S

Alright. enough of exams and prelims and shitty related to them. PICTURE time...

1 of the fridays, went school to study with bro. we went into S2. no one, so on aircon and do work.

This is what I wrote after what bro wrote below, my inspirational quote.

This is what bro wrote. Touching ryte?!

This is what you get when both are side by side... It's damn funny.

After studying (slacking), we went to the chinese restaurant at northpoint. food there not bad.

bro with his phone.

my utensils...

our tea... damn cheap also... lyk wad, $1 per "hu".

me tea!!!!

the rest of the pics are with bro. me lazy to take pics. so bro took. if u wana see those pics, go that restaurant and go see the MENU!!! hahahaha.....


These pics are taken bout 2mths back. Sis went Sentosa to TANN!!! den came back an african!!!

this is a few days ltr lar, when she started sheding SKIN!!!

more skin!!!

My long lost AFRICAN SISTER!!!

She's from AFRICA. Never see camera before. so posing...

She went for BLEACHING lyk MJ.
But did not bring enough money, so the doc did halfway for her nia...
hahahaha....

Ohh ohh ohh... Alex invited me to his place for PHO for the 2nd time!!!! LOVE IT... so nice!!! Think i'm in love wif PHO... Ber the PIG down 2 full bowls sia...

PHO'

L~R : Vietnamese spring roll, squid with veg,
stir fried beef with onion, sauce for spring roll!!!

It's been a long long time that I seriously rode my bike. Mummy ban me sio... Haiz... miss riding with bro... My drivetrain making noise liao... think muz send to bos to see wads the prob. Getting new bike next year. Think will be a AM-FR bike. 6~inch bah... Daddy keep asking me to pass down my current bike to him. Haiz...

Ohh ya, finally did my 5 stations for napfa 2 days ago. I got all the SHIT they require for silver except pull up. i did 3 nia. and guess wad?! I needa go 8 more extra weeks!!! WTF WTF WTF!!! I HATE THE PE DEPARTMENT. KKNBCCB... ARGH!!!! cant help me fake 2 meh. juz that bloody 2 pull up i needa go extra 8weeks. den i put in my effort for the other stations is lykwasted sia... NO DIFFERENT from those slacker/losers that cant even pass. At least I did from 0 to 3 lar. Max i did so far was 5, but tt day could only do 3. ARGH!!! I hate the operation here. Think i wana get out asap and not come back. Australia is good! *i actually typed loads of stuff. but dun feel lyk posting coz i scared lawyer letter come sia*

i think i'll stop here today. Now is 2am liao... Meeting sam and ger later at 9.30am. good nighty!!!